IDK

    He's being different now. I've never seen him like this and it's freaking me out and making me so nervous. 

     He's told me he wants to change many times and acted different for a day or two before being a POS again. I don't know what to say expect this time.  

    He tried to find this page to read what I've written. I was away visiting family and having a mini vacation from him. I've given him my urls before but he never read them. Why does he care now? 

    I was staying with my aunt so I could visit her and her kids/grandkids and get away from his dramatic bs for a bit. She needs help with her business and it would be a great opportunity for me to get away from him and make my own money and life. I told him that. I think it's the reason for the this change of his.... Fear of losing his prey. 

    I don't trust him and I know in my broken gut that he hasn't actually changed but my soul wants to believe the best. He will hurt me again, but how will I hurt myself next?