It should be gone within 4-5 days I think. It's going away pretty quickly, I think its got to do with me rubbing it, idk.  I've been sleeping almost opposite of him for the last couple of days. I go to sleep after he leaves for work and wake up around dinner time. There's less conflict this way but I really need daylight. 😢

   This selfish man thinks that I should be nice to him and not say things like hes aggressive. I realized that Seeley Boof is overly aggressive like him, I think they're similar. I'm not allowed to say such a thing without him being butthurt, leaving and ignoring me.  Once again I'm being punished. I didn't do anything wrong and it wasn't uncalled for. He's done nothing to take responsibility or try to do better. I'm just mean for making him feel ashamed.

   I've sent this page to a few people. No one has said a thing. No one wants to help or interfere. I need help. He will kill me or I will kill myself. It's been so long and I can't break free on my own and I've hidden it from all authorities that have asked. I was embarrassed and I didn't want to ruin his life. 

   He's a narcissist. To everyone else he's the happy nice guy. To me he is hell. I am a good person and wanted and hoped that he would see what he's done to me and want to change. Clearly that's not going to happen. My bruises are always still here when he's ready and willing to give me more if I talk to much or follow him when he runs away.